Cooking for Us

Been very hectic and busy this semester that I literally forgot to post.

I usually post on my way to work or when I'm in public transport. Posting on my mobile diary too but it's been kind of abandoned for now. I need to try and be more consistent for sure.

Anyway, been cooking quite a lot this month. I've gotten accustomed to the small kitchen in the apartment and decided to cook simple but delicious food! I've been inviting my friends for meals at my place as well.

Here are some of the photos of my homemade cooking. Bon apetit.

Flying Back to Melbourne

It's time to go back to Melbourne, it's the end of my vacation. Time flies too fast, I didn't realise that it's been a month.

Here I am, sitting in Oldtown Kopitiam in the airport again. It means that I'm leaving the country.
It's been the place to wait for my flight these past two years. I like coffees and starbucks but they don't have nice meals like in oldtown, only sandwiches, if any.

I love Malaysian food too, so it's two bird with one stone. And they have free wifi! Just perfect, eh?

Going Home

Hi, I'm going home today. :)
Going home as in back to Indonesia.

I'll stay at Jakarta for about a week before flying back to my hometown and I'll be in Indonesia for a month.

Hope it's going to be a pleasant trip and joyful holiday for me.

Ciao

Home???

Home is supposed to be friendly, warm, safe.... Basically a place to live.

I can call my house in Jogja a home definitely....
It's a place where my family live, they give me warmth and security.
I enjoy living there.

How about the apartment I'm living in Melbourne at the moment?
I don't know, there always problems surfacing whenever things started to calm down, it's just like the sea where you always have tides.
When my housemates are quarreling, things are being awkward here.
When they are friendly to each other, it seems like I don't exist anymore...
Don't you feel offended that way? They watched movie together, knowing that I am around, didn't say anything and suddenly watch movie together....
They plan to go out enjoying day-off, knowing me having day-off as well, but didn't ask me.

Is it wrong for three of us to share an apartment in the first place?
Yes, something surely is wrong, don't ask me what how when why where.....
I tried to be positive but I just can't at the moment....
With so many things going on, work, study, volunteer.... My body can't cope anymore, especially with things going around the house....

Is it wrong for me to wish that a home is the only support when I feel that everything's gone wrong? Can't I wish that we, three of us, spend time together on our free time to support each other and chill out as housemates?

Anyway, I just need a place to share my feelings.
If I mention this to my family, they'll be attacking with me moving to city is wrong and blah blah blah.... which prove that me moving out from Clayton is a mistake.
Well, I did admit that it is a mistake at one point, but I just don't want to admit it to my parents yet....

I know it's a mistake and I know it's up to me to fix it. I'll try to see the situation first about this apartment. And in regards to work and study, I'll prove myself that I can handle it, be it storm be it thunder, none is to stop me.

Time to go back to study!

Never Ending Cycle

Well, we live in this world with several cycles going on and on forever.

It's good if we can have long happy life and short sadness within, yet reality is cruel.
Ever since I entered Uni, my life cycle has been a terrible one, especially this year.

Short happiness, long pain which leave unforgettable scar.

Well, at certain point, I feel that it's a valuable experience which I won't get if I didn't come to Australia for sure. But some of this pain.... I just want to forget it, I want to leave it, I want to destroy this cycle.

What do you feel when you are a soft person living with 2 obstinate housemates?
It's terrible really, sometimes I'm regretting my decision moving out (with them), but there are some experiences that I won't get if I didn't do that.
It is a cycle just like war, kept on repeating itself even when it's solved before, leaving another scar which one could not forget.
I'm just tired at the moment, seeing this condition, I moved here since I wished for a peaceful life, everyone in the house are close, I just wished for a warm place that I can call "home" just like my real home in Indonesia.

And now I know that it's just a wishful thinking, you won't find it.
All I need to do is just bear for it until next year, then I'll move with my brother who's coming to Melbourne! (not confirmed though)

What if he cancel the arrangement and decided to study somewhere else? Duh, I'll just move to a one-bedroom apartment or a share apartment instead, at least I don't need to care for the other party. I learn from my current housemates how to be hard-headed, should I say thanks?

Well, at least I've changed, regardless of this childish act, I'm still learning and I hope I'll be mature soon, so I can look for my brother here and give him guidance.
Somehow this is the only reason why I have not transferred to Malaysia, been wishing to go there for so long...

Anyway, what's wrong with me? It seems like I've been complaining when I'm blogging, ahahaa..... Sorry, but this is the only place that I can complain since I don't feel like complaining in either facebook nor twitter, too many people can see it.

Phew, I've been blogging all this time putting so few pictures, eh?
My friends who blogged always put some pictures, but in fact I'm so lazy to do that, ahaha.... I'll try my best to put pictures next time.

Ok, back to study, ciao!

Going Back Home, to Jogja

Ok, it's already July 4th, it's time for me to go back to Indonesia, my hometown Jogjakarta to be exact. :)

It's only few months since I came back, but I'm sure there should be quite considerable changes there.

Time sure flies very quick, I've already spent one-week in Malaysia.
I went to lots of places, enjoying the food, walking around, relaxing, playing, etc etc.
Everything I did in Malaysia was my quality time and I'm enjoying it.
But I didn't just holidaying here, I've been learning many things as well.

It's 5:52AM, less than 30 minutes to boarding time, I'll be taking the 7AM flight with AirAsia.
Honestly, I haven't got any sleep at all, not because of excitement or anything, but I was browsing internet and chatting with my sister until midnight. Then we decided not to sleep since we were afraid that we'll be overslept, haha....

So here we are, waiting for our flight with dizziness, feeling very sleepy.
Well, I don't really feel it though, coz I didn't sleep for few days in the exam period, so I'm kind of getting used to it, LOL.

Ok2, now it's already 15 minutes prior to our boarding time, wow, browsing while blogging sure consumes my time faster than I expected.
I'd better focus on browsing instead, hehe....